I’ve officially name this month the FUCK YOU! month cause this has been one of the worst months ever! Grandpa passed, Car accident, My ex bf “J” is a GROSS WHORE! (btw there’s more about “J” but I don’t wanna waste the time, cause I’ve done enough) I find out the company I work for is kinda in some shit that affects all of us who work here kinda. Then there is this shoot that just started and theres problems with that already, I swear if anything else goes wrong I’m just gonna break down lol. Well I remember from a movie about a quote that I really liked and I thought about with all that’s going on, it’s from the movie Obsessed the quote was “Move on and Move forward”. That quote is working very good for me, but with all that’s going on especially with the ex “J” I will move on and move forward but I will NEVER forget! Just keep that in mind I’m sure we will be seeing each other at pride, but any who enough of him cause that’s OVER and I’m moving forward. Things like this come and go and they get to us and or they just go in one ear and out the other, but why stress about it? there’s so much more the world has to offer and so many people out there. I guess this post is to say don’t let the BS in your life bring you down or stress you out, you will get through it and things will get better for you but just don’t EVER forget. The month of March is still FUCK YOU! but I’m leaving it all and moving forward, but won’t FORGET what did happen keep that in mind “J”. So as of now I’m looking at things different and not gonna let the little stress me out and make better decisions and watch out for me and what not. Have a good night y’all and for those going through it like I have just remember “Move on and Move forward” but NEVER forget trust me.
I don’t really talk about my relationships much on my blog cause I don’t but I feel the need to on this one. So I was dating J (I wont use his name) for 2 months and 9 days, I know its not long at but you know when you find someone and you have that feeling like you know this is “the one” or have a “good feeling” about him. Well I should have seen the signs and caught on but I was so played that I didn’t think J would do anything like this, I was so wrong I should have took everything he said about his past and put it in the present. Things he would say like this for instance “J: I love being fucked! Especially when I haven’t done it in like a WHILE always feels fucking amazing lol” he would say so many nice things to me and made me feel good and everything and he told me he was being such a good boy and that he was committed to me and wouldn’t lie and all this BS and LIES! I also should have thought about what he told me about when he was a child, how he let guys just fuck him bareback and they would use him and tell him he’s nothing and worthless… (well I have to agree now) You cant turn a whore into a boyfriend, once a whore always a whore! I knew something was going on when he said he had to spend time with his family on Valentines Day? Who the fuck spends time with family on the day of Love with your family if you have a BF. Then there was this supposed DUI shit that I’m sure is a lie as well, then my birthday that I didn’t get anything such as a text or call, my accident got nothing either but before that I got him a new cell phone. I made the biggest mistake by giving him money for a new phone but the signs were there to and it didn’t click, he said he would prostitute to make the money! which I said you sure the fuck will not! why are you gonna risk our relationship? he says “cause I need a new phone” so fucking stupid. Then J goes on to say I’ll make Xtube videos and I said no Ill buy you the phone, he then says no Ill feel bad and all and I said look your not doing either of what you said and your gonna take the money and I’m buying you this phone. That’s when I figured something was going on cause still after buying that phone I heard once from him! He was going to Cali for cheer and he didn’t talk the entire time he was in Cali to me and I knew he was up to something, I got the excuse “I didn’t have reception everywhere I was in Cali.” I didn’t believe that for shit and called his BS and stupid excuse didn’t say anything but sorry which at that point I was tired of it. Back to the accident he didn’t talk to me for 5 days and I said this is BS, so I started to ask around and see what I could dig up and sure enough I found out what I needed and everyone was right LIES, BS and DISGUSTING WHORE! I said sorry to one person cause turns out hes a good guy and I was told a LIE for a story and it’s not cleared up and we are gonna become good friends. I guess to end this post is a message to J… You will never ever find someone who will love you and you will never find love again, your always gonna be used and abused for the little WHORE you are. All you had to do was tell the truth like I had asked but you decided to lie and be sneaky but you were caught! Your low self esteem makes you the person you are and everything you said to me I’m sure you tell everyone else and that makes you a FAKE FUCK! You should seek help since your suicidal and think about killing yourself cause everyone HATES you including yourself and your family who tells you your worthless, oh wait everyone tells you that. Maybe you need to make a change like I thought you where and wanted to be happy and not be a BIG WHORE like your continuing to be which is sad, just make sure your you don’t call me about being scared about having HIV that should be a news flash to you. I wanted to be your friend in all this but I don’t wanna be cause your never ever gonna learn and your day will come and karma is a BITCH! Enjoy your life I hope it last long but the way your doing things like I told you before you’ll probably be to late to figure it out. Oh and one more thing before I go to bed… FUCK YOU! that’s all.
Good night y’all
Update! I’m being told not that it matters cause I’ve been home all night LOL that the poor thing thinks I stalked him and caught him! No boo boo I’m smarter then that and you told a friend of mine the wrong thing, and I do have every right to talk all the shit I am and will cause everyone needs to know about you. Maybe you will get more fuck buddies to use you that’s a good thing for you! LOL night.
I don’t really get into my like personal life on here but today I am, I wanna get this off my chest and for everyone to read. Ive been unhappy since my birthday with the way I’ve been treated by my boyfriend, yes that’s right I said boyfriend. So I’ve done everything this far to keep and make him “Happy” and I get treated like shit, why? I have no clue I thought everything was gravy and going smoothly. I guess I thought wrong, outta no where I have been ignored except for text that are like 5 words which I don’t understand or get? So I wrote to him today and I just wanted an answer yes or no? I got nothing back and hes been online for 6 hours! so its obvious something is wrong but he wont tell me. I think its so sad that he couldn’t be a man and even tell me whats wrong, or if I did anything at all which I know I didn’t! I was bummed all day to the point where I was gonna cry… but then I heard this song today and it made me think to myself. FUCK THAT! I am a good guy and gave him love and didn’t do anything to deserve this and all I wanted was to be “Happy” and make him feel the same way. My feelings where really hurt but I said fuck this I did nothing at all wrong and I should be “Happy” and not let this get me down, I’m so not and I think venting about this and getting it off my chest has made me realize this boy won’t find anyone like me or have anyone give him the love and comfort I have! Maybe when he sees he fucked this up he will realize and call me, but I doubt it. Oh well I guess I’m gonna be the HAPPY one and just continue to be me and REAL and not keep secrets and other stuff.
Hey everyone just wanted to post some pictures and the hot topic of all the blogs, me and my beautiful boyfriend together in our first photo set for www.Toegasms.com this was my first time having my feet worshiped and to be honest I LOVED IT and I now have a thing for people playing with my feet I don’t think anyone else can do it better then Krist did though I love you love bug! Not only was this a ton of fun cause it was with my bf but we have each other and know how to turn each other on and make our set romantic, hot, sexy, raunchy etc and were both easy to work with and me being in the industry so long I know how to work photo sets out as well as Krist and we both kinda learn off each other and we look forward to bringing you guys more enjoy the pictures boys. I love you Krist! Thank you Dewayne, Philip and Joe for the postings
Once again Happy Easter from the Gayboy Mansion (Playboy Mansion) were we took the first picture and the rest were from the Beverly Hills Park in Beverly Hills which they all turned out amazing thanks to Cool Tom for taking these pictures for this joyful holiday! I hope you all enjoy the pictures as much as we did taking them for our blogs and personal use as well Love y’all
the quote was “Move on and Move forward”. That quote is working very good for me, but with all that’s going on especially with the ex “J” I will move on and move forward but I will NEVER forget! Just keep that in mind 
I’m sure we will be seeing each other at pride, but any who enough of him cause that’s OVER and I’m moving forward. Things like this come and go and they get to us and or they just go in one ear and out the other, but why stress about it? there’s so much more the world has to offer and so many people out there. I guess this post is to say don’t let the BS in your life bring you down or stress you out, you will get through it and things will get better for you but just don’t EVER forget. The month of March is still FUCK YOU! but I’m leaving it all and moving forward, but won’t FORGET what did happen 
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